I haven’t talk about it a lot on social media but, sewing and knitting has been a big part of my life always. Naturally, after I started to photograph 6 years ago, it has been a lot less. Crafts and creativity in that field was the reason that led me to photography eventually.
At 2013 I was keeping a fabric web store and I was desperately taking photos to my web shop with my phone. I had a SONY phone back then and my man found somewhere a lens which was made to connect to this phone to take better photos. I remember thinking some point that it wasn’t that bad equipment. Christmas 2013 I got the first DSLR camera from my family as a gift. It was Nikon D3500. I guess they had seen my passion even before I realize it myself.
When I say I was desperately taking photos, I really mean it. I struggled so much at first. I had the taste you know. I was very ambitious to have a gorgeous website. I knew what great web shop photos looked liked and I knew how much it mattered for sales to have a quality photos of the products you are selling.
But I didn’t have a clue how to take good photos!
I did all the wrong things you do when you don’t have any knowledge, like I tried to take great photos in direct sunlight. Contradiction between how much I wanted to be able to take great photos and what the end result always looked like really, really frustrated me. It was when i got my Nikon D3500 camera I knew right away that this it what I truly love and I became interested about learning photography for real.
The fact that I wanted to take photos to my shop led me eventually to where I am today. But, it wasn’t the product photography that i was interested. In fact, I lost my intrest to my web shop and many other creative doings. I closed my shop a year later. I only wanted to learn photography!
From the very beginning I loved photograph nature. It came very natural from me. It made me relaxed and happy every time I grab my camera and just wondered around with it. But I didn’t take it seriously. For me it was just fun, exciting thing to do with my camera and not the area I was going to do as a “real photographer”. I considered my nature photography like it was just my side hobby and at the same time I sweated to learn how to take food and still life photos. I thought that it was my area in photography.
The thing is that I love food photos! I found them fascinating and inspiring. I have also always been interested about food and eating generally 20 years. Food is what my life is also much about. I have read dozens of food books (knowledge about food and healthy eating) and tried so many diets out there.
That lead me to confusion. `Cause taking stills and food photos made me always so stressed. It took me a lot of work to take a good photo. Arranging a photoshoot take all the energy from me. I remember thinking why this is so stressful if I love this!
But, then the day came when I understood that nature was my thing and even thought food was big part of my life, I was not a food photographer and I made a conscious decision to concentrate nature photography.
I felt releaf and I felt that I had finally found my focus in photography.
I was kind of blown away how I didn’t see it how much I loved to photograph nature from the very beginning and had not taken it seriously. But creative journey has it`s secret purposes. Later i understood the reason why it was so stressful to photograph food and stills and it was that I didn’t enjoy the styling. I have the taste and eye for beauty and I can recognize what is beautiful and symmetric to human eyes but, I am not good at styling and I do not have passion for it. The best food and still life photographers LOVE styling that’s what I have learned.
What ever you are going trough with your own photography journey, never give up if you are in a struggle at the moment. Everything needs to be experienced and will ultimately lead you to the right place. Life is funny that way. We do not know the outcome we can only live and see how all works out.
Wishing you a wonderful week!